Mental Disorder || Amateras Records

coverMental Disorder

original: 東方地霊殿-少女さとり~3rd eye
arrangement: taqumi
lyrics: 海兎 (Kaito)
vocals: moca
album: Brilliant Story
circle: Amateras Records


[1] 現実[genjitsu](“reality”) is sung as “real”,傷痕[kizuato](“scars”) is sung as “trauma” and 想起[souki](“remembering”) is sung as “image”.

#slowly working off the projects I began ages ago


Sickness,illness,disease…堕ちてゆく 甘く囁く声 貴方だけに
すこしづつ ah…奪ってく 気付けば何もかもが手遅れ ah…
Sickness,illness,disease…ochite yuku amaku sasayaku koe anata dake ni
sukoshizutsu ah…ubatteku kizukeba nanimokamo ga teokure ah…

Sickness, illness, disease… I fall down. My sweet, whispery voice is just for you.
Little by little – Ah… it gets stolen. It was all too late before I noticed, ah…

生きている事に疲れて 突き刺さる視線が怖くて
息苦しくなる現実 傷痕が呼び覚ますのmental disorder
ikite iru koto ni tsukarete tsukisasaru me ga kowakute
ikigurushiku naru riaru torauma ga yobisamasu no mental disorder

I’m tired of being alive, I’m afraid of your piercing eyes.
My reality becomes suffocating – My trauma wakes up a mental disorder.

真面目な程に囚われてく 他人の言葉に振り回されて
ずっと取り残されてゆく どうして貴方は何時もそうなの?
majime na hodo ni torawareteku tanin no kotoba ni furimawasarete
zutto torinokosarete yuku doushite anata wa itsumo sou na no?

I want to be captured, almost honestly so. I’m turned around by other’s words.
I continue to be the one abandoned… Why are you always like this?

Sickness,illness,disease…壊れてく もう戻れなくなる あの頃へと
積み上げたもの崩れてく ゆっくり穴のあいたココロにah…
Sickness,illness,disease…泣いている 枯れ果てる事すら許されない
周りの世界ぼやけてく ふらつく視界から”サヨウナラ”ah…
Sickness,illness,disease… kowareteku mou modorenaku naru ano koro e to
tsumi ageta mono kuzureteku yukkuri ana no aita kokoro ni ah…
Sickness,illness,disease… naite iru kare hateru koto sura yurusarenai
mawari no sekai boyaketeku furatsuku shikai kara “sayounara” ah…

Sickness, illness, disease… I break. I become unable to go back to those times.
The things I piled up collapse. Slowly, into the holes opening in my heart, ah…
Sickness, illness, disease… I’m wheeping. Even what has withered away remains unforgiveable.
The world around me gets blurry. “Good-bye” from my staggering sight, ah…

助けてなんて言えない 邪魔なだけのプライドに
何でも出来る 勝手な想起に手招いてる mental disorder
tasukete nante ienai jama na dake no puraido ni
nandemo dekiru katte na imeeji ni temanaiteru mental disorder

I can’t request to be saved due to my obstructive pride.
I can do anything – I’m beckoned by a selfish image, my mental disorder.

貴方の世界は何時だって 怠惰に過ごした日々の言い訳
きっと救われない事も 何処かで知ってた そうなんでしょう?
anata no sekai wa itsu datte taida ni sugoshita hibi no iiwake
kitto sukuwarenai koto mo dokoka de shitteta sou nan deshou?

Your world is always just a petty excuse of idly spent days.
It might be helpless as well. You knew that deep down, didn’t you?

Sickness,illness,disease…傷ついて 分かって欲しいのに言えないまま
生きてく事に不器用で 独りじゃ嫌だ なんて泣いてたah…
Sickness,illness,disease…寄り添って 甘く囁く声 誘ってく
少しずつah… 奪われて 貴方は知らず知らず選んでah…
Sickness,illness,disease… kizutsuite wakatte hoshii no ni ienai mama
ikiteku koto ni bukiyou de hitori ja iya da nante naiteta ah…
Sickness,illness,disease… yorisotte amaku sasayaku koe sasotteku
sukoshizutsu ah… ubawarete anata wa shirazu shirazu erande ah…

Sickness, illness, disease… I’m wounded. I can’t say that I want you to understand.
“I lack the ability to be alive and I hate loneliness!” And such I cried, ah…
Sickness, illness, disease… I draw close. This sweet, whispery voice calls me in.
Little by little – Ah… I’m snatched away. You unknowingly, obliviously choose that, ah…

 

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