お陀仏 (Ruining Oneself) || 豚乙女

お陀仏
odabutsu
Ruining Oneself

original: 六十年目の東方裁判 ~ Fate of Sixty Years [Eastern Judgment in the Sixtieth Year ~ Fate of Sixty Years]
from: 東方花映塚 ~ Phantasmagoria of Flower View

arrangement: コンプ (Comp)
lyrics/vocals: ランコ (Ranko)
album: 獄 (Goku)
circle: 豚乙女 (Butaotome)

Ranko plays with some imagery that has to do with Eiki, but the song isn’t really about her.
There seems to be so much anger and hatred in this song. But it’s not a song blaming people in general, it’s also including oneself in the judgment. So in short: We’re all horrible people 🙂


大切なものは何?選ばれたそれは罪
綺麗だねでも多分洩れた
怠慢を振り返る そうじゃないんだと叫ぶ
煩わしいほど浅い 嫌いじゃないけど
taisetsu na mono wa nani? erabareta sore wa tsumi
kirei da ne demo tabun moreta
taiman o furikaeru sou ja nainda to sakebu
wazurawashii hodo asai kirai ja nai kedo

What’s important to you? Whatever you chose, it’s a sin.
Beautiful, isn’t it? But it’s probably gonna be left out.
You reflect on negligence, screaming “I’m not like that!”
You’re so shallow, it’s annoying me. I don’t hate you though.

見えてるものだけあれば成り立ちは気にしない
深くまでハマらない 白黒つけてさよなら
mieteru mono dake areba naritachi wa kinishinai
fukaku made hamaranai shirokuro tsukete sayonara

As long as there’s something you see, you don’t care about its properties.
You don’t look through it, handing out black and white labels and seeing it off.

忘れてる過去の傷
空に灰 桜は雨に濡れ
色濃く輝いてる 今も未だ
忘れないあの頃に抱いてた
「全てを救いたい」
手の中握った明日を生きるために
wasureteru kako no kizu
sora ni hai sakura wa ame ni nure
irokoku kagayaiteru ima mo mada
wasurenai ano koro ni idaiteta
“subete wo sukuitai”
te no naka nigitta ashita o ikiru tame ni

You forget about past scars.
Even ashern skies and sakura wet by rain
Are still deeply colored and shining.
Don’t forget what you embraced back then:
“I want to save everything.”
So you can live in the tomorrow you seize in your hand.

決めたのは自分だしやりたくてやってるし
正しさは私にあるけど
野次られて詰られて貶されて無視られて
溜息で埋まってく 隅から隅まで
kimeta no wa jibun da shi yaritakute yatteru shi
tadashisa wa watashi ni aru kedo
yajirarete najirarete kenasarete mushirarete
tameiki de umatteku sumi kara sumi made

I say “life is what you make of it” and “do what you want”.
Justice lays inside of me, but
I jeer, I blame, I badmouth and I neglect,
All to be buried from head to toe with a sigh.

絶対の基準の上で
揺るがない惑わない誰に何言われても
解釈違いは地雷
zettai no kijun no ue de
yuruganai madowanai dare ni nani iwaretemo
kaishaku chigai wa jirai

Even if you tell someone who is
Sturdy and stubborn something that’s over the “standard absolute”,
A misunderstanding is a land mine.

笑えない軽薄さ我儘もごまかしツギハギで
寂しいで許してちゃお陀仏ね
大丈夫、分かってる、お見通し
神様なんだから人でも裁いていれば
なんて、あんまりだ
waraenai keihakusa wagamama mo gomakashi tsugihagi de
samishii de yurushitecha odabutsu ne
daijoubu, wakatteru, omitooshi
kami-sama nanda kara hito demo sabaite ireba
nante, anmari da

If you deceive yourself by patching together listless shallowness and selfishness,
Become lonely like this and forgive, you’re ruining yourself.
It’s okay, I understand, we see through our scheme.
God is god, but people passing judgment?
Something like that is too much.

弱さを蔑ろに
したいわけじゃないから
ちゃんと立ってよ
yowasa o naigashiro ni
shitai wake ja nai kara
chanto tatte yo

Since you don’t want to
Make light of your weaknesses,
Stand up properly.

「全ては救えない」
“subete wa sukuenai”

“I can’t save everything.”

この手から零れてく数多在る反省後悔を
心に刻みつけて 変えていく
忘れたい青すぎるあの頃を
「全ては救えない」
それでも残った明日を生きるために
kono te kara koboreteku amata aru hansei koukai o
kokoro ni kizamitsukete kaete yuku
wasuretai aosugiru ano koro o
“subete wa sukuenai”
soredemo nokotta ashita o ikiru tame ni

I engrave the large number of contemplation and regrets
That spilled from my hands into my heart and change myself.
I want to forget the days I was too immature.
“I can’t save everything.”
So I can live in the future that remains despite all this.

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